Day 1 of Challenge: Introduction to my challenge and 5 facts/anecdotes of my life

WOOO I'M DOING A CHALLENGE INSTEAD OF DOING WORK! I'M SO HAPPY!

Alright. So here goes.

Hello. My name is Zarin. This is my challenge. Seriously, could I get any lamer?
I'm Zarin and I'm doing this challenge because I have nothing better to do and other people are doing it and it looks cool and fun! I hope I get something out of this at the end, although I don't know what that could possibly be =='

5 facts:

1. I dream a lot - as in literally dream, in my sleep. They're always really, really crazy and often include people that I don't even talk to. One time, this guy I never talk to was defending me against one of my good friends. And my dreams are so realistic too!

2. I am Bengali! And a proud one at that. I haven't been back to my home country in years and years, but still, I love it! And if you ever call me Indian I will hit you. It's not that I don't like Indians but I hate that people don't recognise Bangladesh as a country. You will not believe how many people I've met that didn't even know it existed.

3. I am a writer. Uh, an aspiring author. Whatever you wanna call me, I write stories. I never used to write short stories but now I find myself getting random ideas out of nowhere that make me want to write. I almost finished a full-length novel but got angry at how crappy it was so I gave up on it. But I've learnt a lot from my mistakes and now I am writing a novel that is much better than anything I've written before. Yes, it may seem like I have no life, but give me a piece of paper and a pen and I shall be content :)

4. I love music. It's been one of those everlasting dreams of mine to make my name in music, be that playing an instrument, singing or doing both. I've always wanted to be in a band too. Two things stop me from making my music dreams come true though - 1) my parents, who are very academic minded, and 2) my absolutely horrendous stage fright. I am now teaching myself guitar, can sort of play keyboard and I also sing.

5. I miss Brisbane and all the people that I've left behind. I'm actually surprised - there were heaps of people that I despised but now I actually miss them too. I miss my best friends, who I hope are still my best friends, though we do not get to talk very much. I lived there for so long that if you just dropped me in the middle of a random suburb, I'd probably be able to make my way home. Eventually.

Wow, I actually wrote heaps! Well, I'm off now. Ciao!

Modern day fairytale? More like modern day melodrama!

I'm not quite sure what melodrama exactly means but it sounds correct.

I'm sure you've all heard that Kate Middleton is getting married to Prince William, yah? Well, I've heard it SO many times that I'm getting kind of pissed off now. Yes, the future king of England is getting married, yes it's a big deal for him and his family and the British government and what not, but I do not understand why a movie has to be made about it?!?!?!

I turned on the last night and there was a movie on called "Will & Kate: A Modern Day Fairytale" and I watched a few moments of it. All I felt was complete and utter embarassment for Prince William and Kate. Honestly, how would you feel if your whole relationship with the person you were going to get married to was made into a MOVIE and aired in a country on the other side of the earth? All the moments you wish you could forget, plus all the moments that people made up just because they felt like it. Cringeworthy or what? I mean, I would totally love to marry a prince and all, but I am honestly getting sick of this royal wedding business. Please stop and put on some interesting tv shows instead, capiche? I would not blame Kate Middleton for going absolutely INSANE at this very moment. Not that I've gotten married before or anything (or have I? o.O) but a wedding must be pretty hectic and stressful right? Add to that a million gazillion eyes watching you from all corners of the globe, ready for you to stuff up! I mean look what happened to poor Princess Diana! GAWSH! I swear, if Prince William and Kate get divorced, I will... I don't know. Something major. Oh, are they actually allowed to get divorced if they want to?

Well I'm not quite sure if that made sense, but, RANT OVER. Adios amigos.

- thelazydreamer

Hello, I like to procrastinate.

So I've seen Richie doing this thing, and now Durga's doing it, and now I wanna do it cause I'm bored.


Challenge 1: Day 1: Introduction to my challenge and 5 facts/anecdotes of my life

Challenge 2: Day 2: Meaning behind my blog name

Challenge 3: Day 3: My parents

Challenge 4: Day 4: A place I've travelled to

Challenge 5: Day 5: Qualities in a relationship that I believe are necessary

Challenge 6: Day 6: My Favorite tv shows

Challenge 7: Day 7: My Dream house

Challenge 8: Day 8: Something I'm afraid of

Challenge 9: Day 9 : Something that stresses me out

Challenge 10: Day 10: Things that annoy me

Challenge 11: Day 11: My first love

Challenge 12: Day 12: 3 of my wishes

Thank you, internet.

The internet, in my opinion, is such a great thing. Yes, the movies and the music and the games are great, but I'm talking about the massive creative outlet that it provides. If I'm correct, Justin Bieber became famous because of YouTube, right? Not that I'm too keen on using Justin Bieber as an example, but he demonstrates exactly what I'm talking about. Because of YouTube, ORDINARY people can be discovered by not only millions of people around the world, but also by producers and music companies. If that isn't amazing, I don't know what is. There are heaps of singers and musicians on YouTube that have gotten deals because of the fact that they've posted covers on the site.
Then there's DeviantArt, where ordinary people are posting extraordinary graphics and photographs and art that they've created. The talent on that site is absolutely crazy. 
The main thing I'm thankful for is writing websites, like Inkpop and Wattpad. Because of Wattpad mainly, sooo many people have read my work, more people than I thought was possible. People from England, Greece, Norway, America, India, Canada, New Zealand... they've read and commented on my work, and I swear, everytime I read those comments I can't wipe the smile from my face. I'm 15, and people all over the world are reading my stories and poetry and novels. IT'S SO AWESOME!
Even this blog that I'm writing on right now! To you bloggers out there, who knows? Maybe you could land a job as a journalist or a reporter in a top newspaper/magazine because of this blog that you're writing at this very moment.
I hate to sound like an adult, but it is true - the internet is overflowing with countless opportunities. Be thankful! And if there ever was a time for you to pursue your dreams, it's now.

- thelazydreamer.

Kumaaa's 16th!

Hello there everyone :) I'm in an extremely good mood right now! I just got back from one of my best friend's 16th birthday party, which she held at Rashay's. Since I'm so happy right now, I decided I better write about it while the memories are... fresh?

So we sat down to our appetiser (which Monica mistook for the main course) which was this dry pizza-ish thing. We all attempted to dig in to it with knives and forks, but ended up using our fingers like real curries :) Oh, Marija and Richie and Charis decided to be curry for a while too. Monica freaked me out by munching on this horrific looking baby octopus (I DESPISE SEAFOOD, except maybe prawns and certain fish) and  I made a fool of myself trying to eat pasta.

Us gaaals dashed to the bathroom to check our hair (well I watched people fix their hair) and at the last moment, KRISHNA CHARGED INTO THE GIRLS BATHROOM, AND YES THEIRE IS PHOTOGRAPHIC EVIDENCE, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN. Ah Krishna, you know, sometimes I worry about you.

We ran around Rashay's like 'hooligans', attracting attention because of our insanely loud laughter and chatter. Mostly laughter. Everyone looked absolutely gorgeous. Richie was all suited up :D and Charis wore a dress for the first time, I think, and she looked beautiful. We took sooo many photos its crazy. Everywhere I looked there were camera flashes. When I blink I still see outrageously bright lights.

Chantelle, the birthday girl, looked incredible. It was pretty funny watching her fail at blowing out candles. It's scary to think that one of our friends has already turned 16. Is 16 really such a significant age? For me, it is. To me anything under 15 seems really young and 16 signifies 'maturity', so to speak. Thank you, Chantelle, for such an incredible night. I have realised tonight that I really love this bunch of friends :) I hope you're granted with happiness for the rest of your life. Being the kind of wonderful person you are, you deserve it.

Enough of this mushiness.

Tonight was fun :) Can't wait for the next 16th party!

- thelazydreamer

The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas.

A couple of days ago I watched a movie called The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas. It's based on a book by John Boyne, and is about a boy named Bruno and his friendship with a Jewish boy called Schmuel (pronounced Shmall). Because his father is a Nazi soldier, Bruno and his family move to a new home which is next to a concentration camp. Bruno's father is basically the boss of this concentration camp. But Bruno doesn't know it's a concentration camp and thinks it's a farm. Seeing people there, he secretly goes there in search of friends and meets Schmuel. He and Schmuel become the best of friends, even though they can only talk through a barbed wire fence. I'm not going to ruin the ending for you, if you haven't watched it.
I think the most amazing thing about this movie is how it has incorportated the innocence of children. Bruno and Schmuel are too young and innocent to even understand the war waging around them, but they're still subject to its cruelties. Their actions are controlled by the desire to have loved ones close to them, and to be friends with each other. The ending is really unpredictable and had a really major effect on me. I haven't been able to get this movie out of my head since I watched it. It's been haunting me for days.

Sometimes I'm disappointed by humanity. Think about it, this war was designd to exterminate a whole race? of poeple, just because of what they believed in. Christians, Muslims, Jews... they all believe in a God. Jews say 'shalom', Muslims say 'salaam.' Muslims say 'amin' and Jews and Christians say 'amen'. But these differences fuel people's need to KILL OTHER PEOPLE?! One thing I don't understand is how, in World War II, the Nazis had the heart to kill so many children. Had the children done anything to them? Heck no! They didn't even understand why they were being killed! These people were gassed to death! WHAT A HORRIBLE WAY TO DIE! And now there are people sitting in their homes DENYING the holocaust!
Well anyway, sorry for this massive rant. It's just that this movie really made me think. My opinions don't have to be your opinions, but I'm just saying... I'm horrified by what happened to the Jewish people. Nobody deserves to die for the God they believe in.
-thelazydreamer.

Life.

I love the music in this video. I promise this is less weirder than the alien video.

-thelazydreamer

WTF? Aliens?

I was NOT searching through YouTube for this or anything =.= but yeah it showed up on my NewsFeed on Facebook and I foudn it really weird. So, thoughts?
- thelazydreamer

Stupid Stage Fright.

Today has been an excellent day... for picking out my many flaws. I am really, really not confident, as I am coming to realise more and more each day. Everytime I think that maybe I've conquered this problem of mine, I just fall again. I am so jealous of people who can just laugh and dance and sing and make fools of themselves without thinking twice. I envy you people so, so much.
So today was auditions for Variety Night, and I massacred the song. I actually think I was doing okay when it was just me singing in front of Yvonne or my mum o.O. And then, when I sung it at the actualy audition, I absolutely blew up - and that's not a good thing, by the way. I could hear myself missing all the notes and I was just thinking, why the hell is this happening to me now?
I can't remember the last time I gave a good performance. My stage fright is so horrible that sometimes it makes me want to cry. People tell me to just SING and BE CONFIDENT but for some reason, that's almost impossible for me. Oh trust me, I wish I could just SING and BE CONFIDENT but I JUST CANNOT! SOMEBODY PLEASE, PLEASE HELP ME!
- thelazydreamer

Still a Stranger?

I posted this on my Tumblr as well.


“With every sun that sets I am feeling more like a stranger on a foreign shore.”

This lyric from Death Cab for Cutie got me thinking and, uh, a little emotional.

I recently moved cities from where I lived for 7 years of my life. And now that I’m here, there’s plenty of things that I’m happy about and grateful for. But everytime I think about all the people I’ve left behind and all the memories that are slowly but surely fading away, I get this hollow feeling inside of me.

I remember my last day of school at YSHS. I was made to feel pretty special :) I took a billion and one stupid photos with my friends and that final hour of school was like an impending doom or something. I remember trying not to break into tears as all my friends started crying around me.

Obviously, I gave in to those tears in the end.

It makes me sad that I don’t see my friends everyday and I don’t hear their voices everyday either. In this age where loooong phone calls have been replaced by meaningless emoticons and abbreviations like ‘ILY’, it’s not possible to talk to my friends everyday. I don’t go on MSN very often because of my busy lifestyle. Sometimes I wish I was a teenager 10 years ago or something. It seems like life would’ve been more… real.

So sometimes when I’m sitting at school, I get this feeling of being a ‘stranger’. Those moments come so randomly and are triggered by the smallest of things, but when they do happen I feel sort of horrible. I miss my home city more than ever in those moments. I guess every new person gets these feelings, this nostalgia and homesickness, but it’s really painful sometimes.

But I am happy to have met these awesome people here and there are definitely things here that I didn’t have in the past. I just hope this homesickness passes soon.

- thelazydreamer.

SO disappointed.

Hey guys :) I'm starting to realise that Blogger can get sort of addictive...
anyway. My favourite band was Paramore... what can I say, their music just gets to me. And Hayley Williams, the lead singer of Paramore, used to be a massive inspiration to me. Her voice is so powerful and meaningful... I've always wanted to be able to sing like that. But I was talking to Charis today about music, and she told me about a Twitter scandal involving Hayley. Apparently, she 'accidentally' posted a topless photo of herself onto her site. I have no idea how that works, but ok. And then BAM, all my respect in her was gone. I used to think she was an amazing person, but the fact that she can get to this point irritates me to no end. Is all the attention she's getting finally getting to her? Oh please, please don't end up like Britney Spears.
And although it's been in the works for a while, Josh and Zac Farror (guitarists) are leaving the band. MY FAVOURITE BAND IS SPLITTING UP GUYS! Let's have a minute to mourn what used to be an incredible band. It just goes to show, maybe fame does things to you. Bad things.
Z.

This one's for you, burger.

After what seemed like a disappointingly loooong time, my friend Durga and I finally sat down to have a good conversation. It's funny really, we do Zumba together on Wednesday afternoons and we always manage to have this massive D&M session during those afternoons, kind of like in those chick flicks. Of course, I am the wise one and she is the one in desperate need of my wisdom, isn't that right Durga!?

So things have been going on in her life lately, as they do in all our lives, that have been making her question her worth as a person, as a dancer, and I was raging at her today because she doesn't realise just how amazing she is. If any one of you guys have seen her dance, you know what I am talking about: that girl has AMAZING skills (yes, I know, I've used that word many times already). And she is also a lovely person - she was the first person I met when I came to MFHS, she was my tour guide and to this day we are best friends :) So I just want to let you know Durga, please don't let the small things make you doubt yourself. Each and every person has their own special skill, and I KNOW that yours is dancing.

I guess things happen in life that you think will go a certain way - you have it all planned out perfectly, but when it all comes crashing down on you it's kind of hard to bear. And I guess you find yourself thinking, "Oh damn, oh no, why does this always happen to me?" Well, people, this is life. Life has its ups and downs, as I'm sure you all know. You have to learn to adapt to the world around you and just DEAL with the crazy crap that happens in life. Because this crazy stuff will never stop happening, unless you want to go be some hermit. I think this craziness is what makes life that much more amazing, and in the end, this craziness that makes you laugh and makes you cry at the same time will somehow lead you to something magical. Just seize the moments you are given in life, take that energy you have and give your all to create something out of this world awesome.

I don't know where I found this quote, but here it is : "Everything will be okay in the end, and if it's not okay, well then it's not the end."

Z.

Thank God for my parents.

I really shouldn't be on Blogger right now, I should be studying for the topic test I have tomorrow. But I despise studying :( so I'ma post instead :)

Well, if you know me you know that I complain about my parents and little sister. A LOT. You would also know that my dad works interstate at the moment, and comes home twice a month. But I've had enough of this situation. I feel like the only reason my parents are here is me, and they're so depressed now, because of me. I really miss my dad too... I was so used to seeing him every day that I didn't realise how much I would actually miss him if he wasn't there. I think he feels a little weird too, kind of like a visitor, visiting his own home every couple of weeks. It's a hard life for my parents, and considering all the crap they've had to go through their entire life, I don't think it's very fair for them to live this way. I just hope that my dad can get a job here soon so that my family can be together.

My parents are migrants to Australia, and as cliche as it is, they moved here in order for me and my little sister to reap the benefits of a country that isn't poverty stricken, that isn't hectic and controlled by some crazy government. Because I'm here, I have opportunities that most of the girls in Bangladesh don't have. And although I am thankful to my parents, I don't think I ever really show them how truly grateful I am. To those of us whose families have migrated here, I think we all take our parents greatness for granted. Seriously, can you imagine where you would be right now if your parents had not moved here? You would be living a completely different life. And I for one, I am gratefuly that I am not living 'the other life'. 

So I still see my dad every two weeks or so, but I can't imagine what it would be like for a girl whose parents are divorced or maybe whos parents is dead. You know, you may not realise it but you act a certain way around your parents that you could never act in front of your friends or peers. When I think about it, it's crazy the things I do when I'm at home :P I go crazy, literally. I jump around, I dance, I sing, and I hate to say it but my parents are the ones who suffer through my awesome mood swings (note the sarcasm on the word awesome). So yeah, I can't imagine what it would be like to not have that pair of people who you can truly be YOURSELF in front of.

Anyway, I am in an extremly hyper/pensive mood and I just feel like ranting on about everything! I'm not quite sure if this post made sense, but to sum it up, THANK YOU MUM AND DAD. Now, those problems on my desk aren't going to solve themselves, so I better go finish my work. D: Ciao! ~ thelazydreamer.